I have been sort down in the dumps the past two months. Down in the dumps about my body. I have struggled this entire pregnancy with changes my body has endured. And now that this child is no longer renting out space in my abdomen, I am still struggling with the image I see staring back at me in the mirror. I hate when I see people for the first time since the baby has been born and I see there eyes glance toward my postpartum tummy.
I realize I just had my son only eight and a half short weeks ago - and I realize I'm going to look like I just had a child. But the truth is, I was hoping I would be one of the small percentage of people who can leave the hospital in their pre-pregnancy jeans. Truth is, I am not one of those people. But my next thought was, I can use nursing to my advantage - effortless calorie burning! Unfortunately, nursing was not possible for us.
So here I am, two months later, and still looking five or six months pregnant. Ryan and I have started trying to power walk almost every night. I also have been trying to watch my calories; but that's not enough. My weight hasn't budged.
First of all, let me just say, calorie counting is very difficult. I am not one of those people who can see that I've reached my limit for the day (even though it's only 2 o'clock in the afternoon) and then simply not anything until the next day. I have a horrible case of the munchies - and I don't even do drugs! I just LOVE food. I am IN LOVE with food. I love the smell, the taste... everything.
This is a large problem. Especially when every kind of food made available to Americans has enough calories to equal virtually my ENTIRE caloric intake for ONE day. And then, to buy healthy foods, one must be a millionaire.
So what is a person to do? I haven't gotten it all figured out just yet. I am, however, determined to feel better about myself. I don't need to look like a supermodel. And I don't need to be a size zero. Those things are unrealistic. I want goals that are actually achievable.
I have realized about myself that when I set the bar too high, I tend to give up more quickly. So I am going to work my way up to where I would like to be. For now, I will start small.
So here are my goals for this week:1) Don't worry about having an elaborate workout routine just yet - just focus on getting up off the couch and GET MOVING!
2) DRINK MORE WATER!